Tell me who your friends are, and i`ll tell you who you are.

Have you ever heard of that quote? Well, I hear it all the time. From my own mother. I just came from my graduation dinner last night with Bella & Luis. Take note, Luis studies in Lourdes.and he also knows about me & my barkada. FROM LOURDES?? Anyway, On our way home from Power, My mother starts talking `bout how I should keep my reputation safe & all. She already knows that my rep`s already sira. She told me that she`s just repeating all the things she`s heard from people. She was with tita Jong. Here`s what happened, She started asking me about what`s going on with me & my friends. She told me that she`s been hearing worst rumors about us, & that our barakada name is so sama. She heard that AC PARENTS tell other parents that DIE`Z is the WILDEST in the whole batch of grade 7. She said that we always call attention to ourselves, we don`t behave, everybody hates us, some of the people in my barkada are sluts & whores. So, before I elaborate on this, let me tell you crap about me and my friends. I can`t stand this anymore. People say that Mandee`s the WILDEST, People say that Sam`s a slut, People say that we`re such whores that we hang out with all these boys, People say that we dress like slut & whores. Why not get to know us better before actually spreading rumors? You know how hard it is to go the the mall without worrying or freaking out about what will happen to us if perhaps, HS people see us? Do you know how it feels to be verbaly abused by supposedly, ROLE MODELS? Let me just say, IT IS NOT FUN. My mom told me that people from my batch don`t like being seen with my barkada because they`re scared that their reputations will be like ours. You know how hard it was for me to hear that from my own mother?? She also told me that Ateneo parents hate us, & ateneo students their selves. Why did this all start in the first place? I just have to say, that there are more wilder people out there, how come nothing happends to them? Why only us? You don`t know how it feels to be treated this way by everybody. Or how it feels to enter a room, just to know that everybody in that room`s talking about you. Or even just they way people look at you, it already feels like you`re being tortured. I`m going to HIGHSCHOOL, and it`s going to be much worst. I just wanna try & make a difference to this whole thing. Because of all these stupid rumors, i`m being asked to stop seeing my friends. C`MON. They`re all I have. If I cant stay with them anymore, what will happen to me? I won`t have anything. Maybe other friends, but not as close as DIE`Z. You people don`t even know us, please just try to stop judging us. The things me and my friends are experiencing is so diffrent from how a teenager really is supposed to live. You  think it`s easy to live like us? NO. We`ve got family problems, grades, & RUMORS? Yeah, okay, it`s normal, But rumors like,We`re not virgins anymore?!?!? that`s just ridiculous. Why do you people like doing this to us, anyway? Spreading rumors about me & my friends, do you guys actually think it`s fun? Well, it`s not. It hurts us so much. How many times we`ve actually tried commiting suicide. God forbid no one does. How many times we`ve slashed our selves, how many times we`ve tried running away just to get away from all the problems we`re facing. It`s not normal for us to be treated this way. WE DON`T DESERVE IT AT ALL. I admit too that we may deserve some, but not all. And what I mean by some is like 1 or 2 rumors. What you gutys think is fun, is hell for us. So please just stop it already. Have a heart. We never even did anything to you people. So, after this blog, I know there are people who will understand & other people who will hate me more. Hey, look, I have a chatter box, I`m not gonna be surprised to see people tagging, SHUT UP, BITCH. Or, YOU`RE SUCH A SLUT. Oh well, Do  you think it`s the first time i`ve heard those nasty words? NO. So don`t even think i`m gonna be offended. The only reason why i`m writing this is `cause because of all these rumors, My friendship with DIE`Z has to come to and end.

Think about it. :| We also deserve a simple sorry.

GRADUATION

Today was our last day. Grade school was the bomb, but imagine how it`ll be in high school. My mother keeps telling me that high school will be the best years of my life. =)) OH, JOY. :) She just doesn`t know how it is these days. VERBAL ABUSE. Doesn`t happen to others, but it does to me & my friends. Awesome, yeah? :)) Anyway, Today was the day we`ve been waiting for ever since the start of the school year. It finally came to an end. Practicing every effin` song over and over again, standing up, sitting down. GRAD PRACTICE.  Now, wasn`t tha fun? :) Anyway, we`re all gonna miss our grade school years. Here`s another set of 4 years till another graduation comes along :)) Of course it`s gonna be more painful leaving high school than leaving grade school. So let`s not make such a big fuss about it. =)) Even though I am :| =)) I`m just gonna miss being able to do anything without thinking sometimes. Now, we`re gonna have to watch everything we say or anything we do, `cause we`ve got people watching our every move. Yikes. Oh well, PARTY. Highschool`s gonna be one big party.- *****

Me & my "friend" started over, apparently,we weren`t getting along so well. No, I think it was just really me. I just couldn`t stand his non-sense. He didn`t realize what he was doing at all. It really pissed me off how he never really TOOK anything seriously. He called me his BESTFRIEND & he said that he cares for me, but can only talk about use less topics.Past few days, we didn`t talk. He greeted me "congratulations" that i now graduated. :)) He just doesn`t make me happy like he used to. He was just full of himself. He makes it seem like he never wants to talk to me or something. & to think I still had a little feelings for him. Mandee telling me that he likes someone else, just totally made my heart drop. I was practically speechless. It was painful & all, but didn`t matter since I was talking to Mandee who made me feel better. :) Thanks, bestfriend. So, I finally talked to him & he said he was really sorry & he`ll TRY to be a good friend. Wtf? =)) Oh well. We started over, as in STARTED over. We pretended we didn`t know each other. Well, I hope he keeps his word.

That`s all I`ve got  to say, for now. :) I`ll keep updating. I need to let it all out.

I`ve lost every chance for me to say that I miss you, to say that I love you. :(

Wah. Today`s the last day of grad practice. So, grad practice is finally over. i`m gonna miss it though. :| I THINK =))Carmen watched us. Aw, Her friends gave her a short speech before she left. It was so sweet. I felt like crying, but couldn`t `cause it was so funny. =)) We actually sang really well today. Just `cause Ms. Magdangal was there. Her eye scares us all. =)) Oh, & Sr. Nuyda got mad :O Whoah. =)) I can`t wait for tomorrow, i`m graduating. Carmen`s gonna watch, and she`s gonna be wearing her AC uniform for the last time. :) We all love you, Carmen. :)

I just finished eating lunch. I`m watching Little miss Sunshine. I kidna got bored, ended up blogging. I`m supposed to be uploading picture from gymnastics, but i`m really tamad right now. :)) Like always. I have to buy flowers for the offertory tomorrow. Tsk. Some people are planning to watch. Is it even allowed? :)) Anyway, I still have to buy white stockings too. My brother, Miguel can`t go to my grad. So, I have one extra ticket. =)) I`m getting sleepy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Susan :)

I`m off to gym tomorrow. Another week of body pains. =)) Oh, joy. I can`t wait. :) I didn`t do anyting today, but sit on my bed listen to emo music. :)) Gah. i`m such a loser. =)) Sr. Vicky said we don`t have to go to school if we sing WELL.  Too bad we didn`t. =)) Mrs. Pia made us stand the WHOLE time. It was tiring. It`s late. It`s already 9:42. My mother claims she`s sooo tired, but still doesn`t wanna sleep. Weirdo. Kidding. Love you, Mother.

While sitting at home the whole day, I was online, and found my new sis. Tim Sugay. =)) He claims to be my sister. Weirdo, Tim.=)) Kidding. Anyway, I have to go. If I don`t, I have yet to hear my mother lecture me about being puntual & crap like that. :))

Bye. :P

March 22, 2oo7

I`ve been depressed lately. I have no idea why. I actually do, but I just don`t wanna tell anybody. I was actually forced to spill it out. =)) By someone named, Amanda Villapando & Sarina Samson. I told them naman. =)) I got really pissed today. A certain someone just really likes being the center of everything. She has to be number one. :| It just really pissed me off. I mean, c`mon, Give others a chance. Slef centered. I hate it. It`s so ANNOYING. Feeling ms. PERFECT. & if i say no to what she wants,she has to go bitching around like she`s the queen of the world. & in the end, I have to be the one who talks first & admit that I was wrong. I hope you really change. If you piss me off one more time, DIE`Z will come after you, I SWEAR. :| I don`t wanna have to write another blog like this. Please change.

After all the stress, I needed something to cool me down. I went to the tiwns` house. Gia was so bored, she ended up putting make-up on me. =)) & dragged me to see her brother, Gio =)) We got bored, we ran around the village, like some retarded freaks =)) We got so tired we fell in the middle of the street. We didn`t really care that everybody was looking. Our days are limited before she leaves for Italy again. Might as well do something fun & crazy before my summer becomes useless & I have no one to play with. I don`t sound like a graduationg student. :| =)) Speaking of graduating, today`s the graduation of Ateneo. Congratulations, Guys. :)) Now I have my graduation to look forward to. Hoora. We`re off to high school. I don`t really know whether I should be happy or sad. =)) Oh well. Sad, Hard subjects, Torture form high school ppl. Happy, i`m another year smarter :> , PARTY =)), Another year older, I`M IN HIGH SCHOOL :))

Good night, Everybody :)